15 Weeks

So the Jaja is 15weeks and you can already start to see his little personality. He is so loving and cute - he laughs at just about anything I do - which I love because not very many people think that me making fish lips is funny.
But he has discovered his lungs and the ability to screech as loud as possible and I mean loud! After about the second hour of him screeching in the car I think that my migraine decided to move in and hold court. But its worth it when I look in his little face and he just lights up.
I have found that being a mommy has given me a true appreciation for my own mother and how much she sacrificed for me on a daily basis. I am still trying to figure out how to manage my time - I think I got it but somethings seem to be left out at times - But its all good.
With that - I am trying to decide if going back to work can be put on the back burner a little longer. I love staying home and I love taking care of my son. But I think that at times I am longing for that adult conversationthat you get from coworkers and clients.
Its tough because I have been out of work since february of last year and I have enjoyed it but there are days that I wish I had a job to go to. Is it wrong for me to think that taking care of my son is not a job? that tending to him and watching out for him is not hard enough? We will see what God has in store for me - maybe His plan for me is to be a stay at home wife/mom and help my family with their needs. We will just have to keep praying and ask God to show me what he has in store for me - I just have to let Him know what I would like and ask that His will be done.
“Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart” (Psalm 37:4). If the Bible does not speak against it and it can genuinely benefit you spiritually, then the Bible gives you the “permission” to make decisions and to follow your heart. If you truly seek God’s will with a humble spirit and an open mind, He will reveal His will to you.