Oh the dreaded ferberizing has arrived at our home - It has been 4 days and we almost have it - but the boss seems to get more upset as we go along.
I know that this is important and I know that he will benefit from this as he gets older - But what do I get out of it - heart ache and the feeling that I am some how hurting my son. Will this feeling go away? Will he forgive me? Will these next couple of days be imprinted in his mind - Mommy didnt want to pick me up - I cried and she just ignored me. But truth is I know he will forget it, I know he does forget it - Because every morning he wakes up with the biggest smile and he is so happy to see me, so I know that he has forgotten the night before.
So how long is it gonna take for my son to get the hang of this? How long will I have to suffer along with my son ans he begins to learn to soothe himself to sleep? I hope that it wont be to long cause I sure cant take this for two long.
I think that this process teaches my son that no matter what the situation - he can get through anything. Sometimes its hard to understand how life works - we are taught that no matter what everything is gonna be fine, that no matter how hard the situation we can get through it because there is always gonna be someone to be there for us to reassure that things are gonna work out.
I know that my mother is there for me, my father is there for me and now my husband. Now is this something that I have learned because I was ferberized? Who knows but I do know that I turned out ok and I am sure my son will to.
