I am not a bad mom but why do I feel like a bad mommy?

Lately I have had time to think about what I do and how well or how bad  I do it. I have been a stay at home mommy and my husband works 4 ten hour days so I am here till 530 all by myself and at times I want to run and hide.
Is that wrong? I mean as much as I love my son I want to hide sometimes and just come out in a couple of years. Is this normal? I would think that maybe yes and maybe no. I was so used to working for so many years and have the freedom to get up and go where ever I wanted when I wanted. Now things have changed drastically, I mean I cant just pick up and go when I please and if I need to rush off somewhere I still have to plan for the rush.
I find myself though at times wishing I had more time in the day for me and that I can spend more time just relaxing. I pray that nap time will be more like 3 hours instead of 1 and I know its wrong but I get excited at bed time.
Sure I am not gonna win mother of the year nor worst mother of the year. But I know that I am not alone. I know that there are other stay at home moms and dads out there that feel like I do and pray that God will make nap time last longer. But why should I be ashamed of being a stay at home mom who needs to sleep an extra day just to feel like her self?
So in order to compromise being a stay at home mom and wanting something for myself I have decided to go back to school. Now this may seem wrong to many but I think that I am on the right path to making ME the priority. What am I gonna study? Well believe it or not I am going to go get my credential to be a teacher. I am gonna first go and study child development so that I can work in a day care/preschool but its something that I have been wanting to do for awhile and just put it off because i felt it was not ok to leave my son.
So inspite of thinking I am a bad mom I think that my son will proud that his mommy did something for herself and this will help me be a better mom and wife. I think that in the long run I will be glad I did this because I know that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me and I have faith that God is the one who will guide me and give me the extra time in the day to get things done.

And So it begins!

So who knew that dieting actually takes work? Apparently not me  - so turns out that I need to loose weight and so its gonna take some hard work and time. But I am determined to do this and so today I enrolled in Weight Watchers. I am determined to do this and make it work - so what better way to make it work then by blogging about it and letting the world wide web about my journey.

So I decided that I have to buy the foods and try it that way first to make sure that I can actually stay with in my points and that I am still getting in some veggies. I have to write down everything and I must keep a journal! I think that writing about my day and how I felt that day and at the end of the day will help me see what is triggering me to eat certain things and at certain times.

I WILL be going for a walk on a daily basis even if its just for a small walk but I have to keep active and try to not make it or keep it boring. My son loves being outside and I want to make sure that I keep him in mind when I wake up. He is one of the reason I am doing this - I need to loose weight for him and for me. I dont want to be one of those mothers that cant play with their kids because they are to big to even move.

So with Gods grace and my husband and son by my side I will make this work! Best of luck to me!